Return to the old

Whn i first thought of blogging nearly a year ago, it was not to follow a fad, not to scream out to the world that i exist and here's what it think of you, it was a  much more personal idea, like a journal i wouldn't have to worry abt lying around for my friends nd family to come across....... it was an exercise to record what i think and feel for myself, so that i can create memories for myself nd may be interact with some random strangers and know what makes them tick, if at all they care to share......but as it turned out all that it is not...., though i've managed to keep my rookie blog out of evryone's notice i did fall into the trap of wishing they knew what i was thinking and saying, wishing tht they comment on evry little thing i post about ,whether its a movie i saw or a toe nail i broke, i didn't actually announce the fact tht m blogging bt was continously thinking what would make a good read, changing the background every second day ....in short defeating the very purpose i began it for......... bt their was this niggling feeling that none of this is  working for me......
now i understand why ,
why personal diaries used to come with locks, their hiding places were as secret as the holy grail and the idea tht someone was in position to go through it the cause for alarm.......so much so it became a cliche, for i  too have  maintained forever that i m not comfortable giving everyone an insight in my soul, its too easy to read what someone thinks, figure them out and find a place in their life, no fuss, no fun and obviously no sincerity!

So, here i am being honest to myself, and reverting to the original purpose of my blog, and will keep doing so till they find me which i hope will nt be for a very long time, m not turning the lock jst yet bt i think i'll keep the option open....btw i think the old template works best....wht do u think??



P.S. - as for those who do come across it, actually want to read an comment without feeling any obligation or formality, pls feel free.....only sincere comments are welcome....