THE CHANGE

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Getting the Horse To Drink

 I worry often, I fret sometimes,
 I yell,  I am rude
 I am concerned ..
I tug, I pull, I push sometimes.
I whisper sweet nothings into his ear,
I smile my most charming of smiles,
I laugh till I turn pink...

But do whatever i might, I do
I cannot get my horse to drink...

TRUST

Trust, the  five letter word our world revolves around..but i am not here to extol upon its virtues in the makings of  relationships with others, enough has been said about it over the millenia. No, i want to dwell on its virtues in its relationship with myself and in hindsight with the big, bad world of consumerism.

My Aching Back

In what feels like a long long lifespan of 2 decades , i've come to realize i've a pretty magnetic personality ..seems like every knife in the vicinity is attracted to my back..
At every corner that i've turned i have found people seemingly honest, jovial, likable but quintessentially  two faced and self-serving.....for all their tall tales and promises of everafter, i have repeatedly found myself stranded in the middle of nowhere clutching at severed heartstring, shaking my head at the ignominy of being duped yet again into trusting the untrustworthy..
but trust i must again and again, have my heart broken again and again ...for i cannot bear the thought of traversing the miles with just my mirages for company...i'd rather they have a more solid form even though both have just as shaky foundation

I am not being high and mighty, i probably have more than my enough share of faults.... and apparently i am the dead weight that should be cut lost at first signs of trouble.
I have come to understand the ways of the world, but that doesn't mean it hurts any less...
Me and My aching back have each other for company now and forever...held together by skin and sinew....until that is the gaping holes tear us apart............